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Here is a piece of magic sent to me by a dear friend. This 1992 classic was re-recorded two days ago. I hope you enjoy it as much as I do.

“Winter” by Tori Amos.

UPDATED: The “free trial” of satellite radio I mentioned here previously is not free after all and I do not recommend it. (The supposed “free trial” is an exercise in frustration. I recommend enjoying this clip rather than trying to access the additional clips of Tori that were supposedly going to be available for viewing for “free” on 12/24). On a brighter note, Tori’s newest album, Midwinter Graces, is just beautiful. I highly recommend it.

A very big thank you to Dorian (aka @coffeesister), who sent me the link to this video. Dorian thoughtfully sent it to me because she knows of my love of all things Tori. Why not show Dorian some love by visiting her blog Drink Deeply?


Click above to give Dorian some love today. Thank you, Dorian, for being a special, thoughtful friend!

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Reading: Winter


1 EndochickNo Gravatar { 12.21.09 at 12:39 pm }

I could use that cup of coffee Dorian has for her avatar right about now. It’s cold and I’m tired. Busy setting up things for grad school, figuring out books and schedules, and how life is once again about to get hectic! And Christmas has come up to bite us once again!! Glad you enjoy your Tori. It’s nice to relax and be inspired by some music. My mom sent me some cash and I’m using some of it to replace my headphones for my LG Chocolate phone so I can listen to the songs I have stored there.
.-= Endochick´s last blog ..Drug Withdrawal =-.

2 GyandeviNo Gravatar { 12.21.09 at 3:08 pm }

Thanks so much for sharing the Tori clip. Beautiful and amazing — just like you. Happy Birthday, Jeanne!

3 PoobaNo Gravatar { 12.22.09 at 12:25 am }

Oh I’m so glad Yaya brought we two Tori lovers together! Loved the video! I’ll have to check out her other songs on SIRIUS.

I am loving Midwinter Graces, it’s a constant at my house right now!
.-= Pooba´s last blog ..Nipples, The Perfect Conversation Starter =-.

4 PoobaNo Gravatar { 12.22.09 at 12:30 am }

Ok, so I just checked out your other Tori posts (Not sure why it’s not letting me comment on them too???) and I am so jealous you got to not only meet her in person but get a picture too!! So do tell, what is she like in person?
.-= Pooba´s last blog ..Nipples, The Perfect Conversation Starter =-.

5 JeanneNo Gravatar { 12.22.09 at 1:03 am }


Yes, it has been a wee bit cold lately, hasn’t it? I’ll bet you’re busy! Gyan tells me that she’s planning on getting her grad school textbooks via my Amazon links and that it’s cheaper than buying them at the university. So, keep it in mind in case you might be able to both save some money and get them shipped right to your door. My Amazon links work year-round. 🙂 Anyway, your life is always hectic. I know you mean more hectic, though. Yes, Christmas is fast approaching. Yes, I love my Tori! When I pulled up Dorian’s link and found this video, I was so excited! That’s great that you’re getting headphones. I know you find music helpful for healing like I do.


Hey, I was just talking about you. Your textbook comment on another post was a perfect segue-way for my reply to Endochick above. See? (Look up). Haha… I am glad you enjoyed the Tori clip! Of course, I knew you would because I know you are a big Tori fan like I am. That was an amazing video, wasn’t it?? I swear that is the best live Winter version I have seen to date. Absolutely magical! I am so thankful to Dorian for thoughtfully sending me the link. (She knows of my Tori music addiction)! As far as the remainder of your comment, shh! Man, you can’t keep a secret at all, can you?


Welcome! I agree… it’s great that Alicia made me aware of your affinity for Tori. When I heard about it, I had to rush right over to the link she gave me. I had to check it out tonight, of course. (Anything Tori-related is urgent in my book). 🙂 You know what happened next. I scanned your blog and found 6 posts tagged under Tori. Which of course meant only one thing… leaving you 6 comments. (How could I leave a Tori post behind without commenting on it?) Impossible! Anyway, it sounded from your posts like you are clearly a diehard Tori fan. This, of course, is a wonderful thing to be! Of course, you already know that… because you are one. Hmm. Is that circular logic? Oh well. I think you probably know what I mean. Yes, that video was amazing, wasn’t it? So powerful! I love it when she gets all emotional like that. Classic Tori. Yes, I too will have to check out this free trial of SIRIUS so that I can access the remainder of that session. I too am thoroughly enjoying Midwinter Graces! (Readers, that is Tori’s recently released seasonal album and it is just beautiful). Like you, I have been listening to MG quite a bit. I love all of Tori’s music but I really love when she has the strings complimenting the piano. Awesome!! It’s nice to meet you. Thanks for stopping by.



6 JeanneNo Gravatar { 12.22.09 at 1:58 am }


Don’t worry. It’s working fine. Comment away!

I have comments moderation set up on my blog. I just so happened to see your first comment pop in and I published it quickly. (Normally it wouldn’t have been so fast). So the delay on posting this one was just that it was in moderation still. I just noticed it now – because I was moderating other comments (including your first one) when this popped in.

Yes, I got to meet her in person. I got an autographed picture, got to go to a partial sound check (including the song “Upside Down“… which is AWESOME in the boxed set), sat in the third row (wouldn’t have wanted rows one or two because they were actually too close to the stage), etc. It was absolutely amazing! This was the fourth of the four shows I’ve seen her do live. It was the American Doll Posse tour in 2007. If you look at my right sidebar, you’ll see Alicia’s blog is on my “Healing Posse“. Would you like to take a stab at who that’s a nod to? Yes, ADP inspired me to name that section of my blog “Healing Posse“. (My full blogroll is on the ‘blogroll and resources’ page under navigation).

Anyway, Tori is really down-to-Earth and really nice! She is just as cool, smart, and funny as you probably would imagine. It was surreal to stand next to her. My friend (who loves Tori just like I do) went to that concert with me. So, she and I took turns taking each other’s picture with Tori.

There were some scheduling delays and things were running late that night. So, we didn’t get as much time as I think had been planned for the part where we got to meet her in person. It was lots of waiting to get to that point and then it went by like a flash once we got to the pictures and autographs because it was getting pretty darn close to show time. I am NOT complaining, though!

When we met her, we didn’t yet know which two ADP archetypes would be featured that night for the concert. We got to see Tori before the wigs and costumes. My friend and I each had brought a copy of the same glossy 8″ X 10″ for her to sign. In it, she was wearing a blue-green sparkly jumpsuit. That night, one of the characters she picked for our venue wore that exact sparkly jumpsuit.

There were only 25 seats in the backstage bunch (my friend and me being two of them). I have read that on the ADP tour Tori often decided at the very last minute which 2 archetypes to use for a particular city based on the “vibe” she got from people in that city prior to the concert. My friend and I half-jokingly said we thought she picked that archetype and wore that costume because of the pictures we had her sign. (I had found the image online from an overseas concert that preceded ours. My husband had taken the Internet photo and had blown it up to 8″ by 10″ and printed it on glossy paper at a photo lab. It came out great).

The energy you feel when you meet her is really something. I don’t know how to put it into words except to say that you really could feel her energy. I’m not referring to the obvious ability to feel her energy once the music started onstage. I mean that you could feel her energy, literally, while standing backstage.

She is just so normal. Yet at the same time she is one very special woman. Frankly, I feel fortunate to be alive in the same time period as she is. I look at her as far more than a musician (not that there is anything wrong with that)! I look at her as a true artist in about every sense of the word. I believe her body of work will stand the test of time.

She has helped so many people. I don’t know how much you know about her work with RAINN (the link for it is in my blogroll) or how far out of her way she goes to look out for her fans’ well-being but she is truly a very caring, insightful, thoughtful woman.

I am not the type of person who gets all gaga over celebrities. With Tori… I have the utmost respect for her music, for what she has had to go through to make it in a tough business on her own terms, for her strong spirit, for her courage, and for her ability to stay so normal (but not too normal). So many people who started out in the same time-frame she did have fizzled out, burned out, or “sold out”. Tori is certainly no “sell out”. Some have conformed to (often ridiculous) music industry “rules”. Not Tori.

If you like Tori as much as you clearly do and you haven’t yet read her book, I am sure you’d like it: “Tori Amos: Piece By Piece” by Tori Amos and Ann Powers. [I will insert my little commercial for my Amazon links here in case you are suddenly grabbed by a strong urge to make any Tori purchase. Haha].

She is a remarkable woman. Her music has gotten me through a great deal of adversity. I know many others who feel the same way.

I love Tori. Her consistent and, at times, brutal honesty may be her best quality. Or right up there at the top. I think it’s why so many people are so fiercely loyal to her. Then there’s her brimless musical talent too, of course. She works very hard too. This is not a woman to rest on her laurels.


7 PoobaNo Gravatar { 12.22.09 at 12:07 pm }

Oh my gosh I am so jealous that you had backstage passes, that would seriously be amazing to me! I agree with everything you said about her, she truly is amazing and the fact that she hasn’t sold out shows that she is a true artist. And her music has always helped me as it has you and others.

Thank you for letting me know about the book, I have not read it but now I am going to! I just went and purchased it on Amazon! (Of course I used your link) so it should arrive soon!

I am very excited! I also asked my husband for The Piano: A Collection and I think I may be getting it! (yay)

I play the piano so I have purchased a lot of her piano music and just love playing her songs, I know the songs in the books aren’t exactly what she plays because they add in the melody but I love them just the same. (However I’ve been searching online to find original sheet music of what she actually plays)

Anyway….thanks for telling me about your experience meeting her!
.-= Pooba´s last blog ..Nipples, The Perfect Conversation Starter =-.

8 JeanneNo Gravatar { 12.22.09 at 2:27 pm }

Hey Pooba!

It was amazing alright! I just love her whole work ethic and philosophy on things. She doesn’t care one tiny bit about radio play. It’s all about the sound and the art to her. She is the real deal.

Yes, the book she wrote with Ann Powers is very interesting. (That’s where I found out Tori has endometriosis like me). Thank you for purchasing it using my Amazon links! I really appreciate it! I’m sure you’ll enjoy it. It gives some interesting insights into the music industry. Her strength is admirable. Wait until you read how the music industry treated her after she miscarried. Dreadful. Absolutely unbelievable. You’ll like the book, though. I’m sure of it.

Ah… the boxed set! Yes, my husband got that for our 11th wedding anniversary. I had wanted it for a very long time. It was a special treat. When he ordered it, he didn’t realize that there are two versions. The “regular” version and the import version were both available at that time via Amazon, where he got it.

He purchased the import version… which as it turns out was more expensive. After I had opened it, I had gone on Amazon and compared the two versions and from what I recall it looked like they had the same music in them. The packaging was different. (The “regular” version came in a case that looks like a piano keyboard).

Anyway, I just went on Amazon and compared them again. (I was making sure both versions have Upside Down since I got you all psyched up for that song). Anyway, that song is on both but what is interesting to note is that the regular version has been discontinued by the manufacturer! (This absolutely blew my mind).

The regular version is still available through third party sellers but to get the boxed set from the manufacturer, the import version is now “it”. I have no idea why they discontinued the regular version. Anyway, like I said, I have the import version. So, I can’t vouch for anything about the other version but I can say the import version is absolutely stunning. It has 5 CDs and I just love, love, love it! The sound of the bells on Upside Down is just beautifully haunting!

As far as sheet music is concerned, my daughter started piano lessons at age 4; she’s 9 now. My awesome friend Jannie Funster (see that good old Healing Posse again) surprised me by sending me the Tori Amos Anthology, a 203 page book of Tori Amos’ sheet music! (I blogged about it HERE).

Anyway, the hilarious Jannie Funster (a fantastic musician in her own right who released her first CD, “I Need A Man” this past year sent me the Tori Amos Anthology because she thought my daughter might enjoy playing Tori’s music. (My daughter is still a little bit intimidated by it… even though she is certainly capable of playing some of what’s in the book. She is just not accustomed to playing sheet music that wasn’t handed to her by her piano teacher. So she “thinks it’s too hard”. We are letting her ease into it. I don’t want to push her on it. She’ll jump in when she feels ready. She’s getting there).

Anyway, my daughter started lessons before we even had a piano at home. We had an electronic keyboard at home and that’s what she used to practice between lessons for a good year or so. (Her lessons are at the studio her teacher has and he has a baby grand). Before we got a piano, I said seen a free organ posted on a local bulletin board. Anyway, the day we got a truck to move a relative’s piano in to the house, we called the organ owners to inquire about the size of it. (We couldn’t imagine how we were going to fit both the piano and an organ in the house but we had to ask since it was FREE).

As it turns out, the organ is quite small. So, we took advantage of the truck and picked up the organ and the piano the same day! We have the piano set up perpendicular to the organ in a corner. My daughter can play a song with left handed piano and right handed organ… at the same time! (If you watch any of my videos, they are all taped in that corner of hers… with Tori’s autographed picture hanging on the wall behind me. Just click my YouTube link to get to my video channel. I’m overdue to make a video and hope to soon.

Speaking of the autographed Tori picture, at the ADP tour backstage we were each allowed one autographed picture. Well, there is no way I was taking a then 7 year old child to a Tori Amos concert (good thing… there were things she needn’t have seen nor heard, as I’m sure you can imagine) but I still felt guilty that she didn’t get to go because she loves Tori. (We exercise some editorial control on which Tori songs we have her listen to at this point).

Anyway, instead of having my Tori picture autographed to me… I had it autographed to my daughter. Tori has a daughter the same age as my daughter and I showed Tori a picture of my daughter beaming away while playing in her organ/piano corner of the house. Tori autographed the picture to “a little piano lady”. How cute is that?

Anyhow, back to sheet music. I don’t know if the sheet music you have is already Tori Amos Anthology or not. That may be as close as it gets to “what she actually plays” because Tori doesn’t read sheet music.

Her dislike for sheet music has been written about. I don’t know if you had heard that she was admitted to the Peabody Conservatory (somehow affiliated with Johns Hopkins, I believe) at the age of 5 (the youngest student ever admitted)?

Anyway, at age 11, her dislike for sheet music combined with her penchant for playing music that wasn’t in the Peabody curriculum (John Lennon was one, if I remember correctly) resulted in them kicking her out at age 11.

She really isn’t one to play from sheet music. (I don’t know if you are familiar with “Tori Kant Read” but that name was a nod to her dislike of sheet music). It cracks me up whenever I see that because it makes her sound illiterate and she is amazingly smart and very well-read.

Therefore, the task of capturing her music totally accurately in sheet music is difficult because she might not ever play a song exactly the same way twice. So trying to transcribe her songs from the CD versions of the songs as best can be done is about the closest anyone can do, I think.

My pleasure. There are few topics I enjoy talking about more than Tori. She’s so talented. I just find her work fascinating and it has helped me through some challenging times. To me, her music is a gift!

Thanks again for purchasing with my Amazon links. I really appreciate it!!


9 alohamorakatNo Gravatar { 12.23.09 at 5:20 pm }

I like Tori Amos too! I love how you put Tori music on your blog. Music can really make people feel better.


10 JeanneNo Gravatar { 12.23.09 at 5:22 pm }


Thanks. I agree… music helps me cope with pain and lifts my spirits.


11 GyandeviNo Gravatar { 12.23.09 at 6:58 pm }

Endochick — Congratulations on acceptance to grad school! I just finished my undergrad in psych. Bought all of my textbooks from Amazon. Psych books are really expensive — up to $250 each. I must have saved at least 50% on Amazon. I remember having to buy a book for a last-minute class change from the college book store. I spent $70 for what I could have bought on Amazon for $10 plus shipping. This was for the exact same book, current edition, with CDs. School is expensive enough without having to spend enormous amounts on college textbooks. Wishing you good luck and much fun in school. — Gyan

12 Boxing BagsNo Gravatar { 12.31.09 at 12:16 pm }

Great clip of Tori! 😀

13 JeanneNo Gravatar { 12.31.09 at 7:03 pm }

Boxing Bags,

Isn’t it? I just love Tori! 🙂


14 PoobaNo Gravatar { 01.08.10 at 12:06 am }

Just stopped by to watch Tori again. Gosh I love that video, it’s hard not to cry watching her!
.-= Pooba´s last blog ..Kissmas Eve =-.

15 JeanneNo Gravatar { 01.08.10 at 12:13 am }


Isn’t it just beautiful?? I know just what you mean about holding back tears.


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