I had replied to this previously and it had posted but in the course of switching servers it apparently got “lost”. So here goes…

I agree with you that we all have the ability to tap into that inner peace that is tied to happiness. It’s often difficult for people to understand how one can be happy in the midst of challenges and tragic circumstances. However, it is possible to achieve happiness despite great adversity.

I am really glad you’ve had some of these moments lately in particular because I know you have been dealt some painful and challenging blows lately. It’s great that J is so excited.

Yes, I know that your massive collection of books has already been thoroughly scoured by you and you are looking forward to something new.

I feel badly that B is having nightmares. This all has been very stressful on him too. It’s a lot for anyone to handle. The last thing you need is him passing out in the middle of that scene. So, if he decides that would be too much for him, I would “give him a pass”.

As far as MIL is concerned, B will have his phone tree to reach people. So that’s OK too.

Jeanne

It is times like these that I’m reminded that happiness lies within and is a state of mind accessible to everyone. It might be difficult to see it through the pain and misery, but it’s there. I have my moments where it shines through, believe me. Lately J has been giving me more of these moments which are like little rays of sunshine. He’s become so helpful and so caring of the baby. He’ll spend hours just talking and singing songs to my tummy. I’m thrilled that he’s so excited, as we all are.

We both know that I’m running short on my “library” collection. I have soooo many books and yet I’ve read most of them cover to cover. I say most because many of them are textbooks. But then again, fiction just doesn’t grab me the same way as reading philosophy or more about the psych world.

Anyways, almost 6:30am and I’m going to try to have a snooze before my dad gets here to take me down to the hospital. Poor B has been having nightmares all night about my pregnancy and me possibly needing a c-section, he was asking me if I really needed him there in the case of a ‘c’ as he doesn’t think he could handle the stress. It’s going to be an interesting remainder of the pregnancy if he’s already worried about that! lol. We did ask the MIL if she wanted to be there (at the hospital waiting room) but she declined…

Hugs,
M
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I hope “authentic happiness” arrives to you faster than the book can be shipped. You deserve a break. I’m so sorry you’re going through so much pain and encountering so many serious problems. I’m sending positive energy your way!!

Jeanne

She sure was excited to win.

Jeanne