This is not going to be a very detailed post because I am simply too tired and sore to write what I wish I could write.
For several days now, I have not been feeling well. Since I have so many illnesses and since some of them have overlapping symptoms, it took me a few days to realize (or maybe accept?) what is going on. I figured it out yesterday. I am now in a fibromyalgia flare-up.
Since I have been feeling really lousy due to my period, I initially dismissed the profound fatigue I have been having as period-related. It’s true that during my period I have times where my body just shuts down and taking a nap is not optional. However, I now know that the fatigue I have been experiencing was from more than just the endometriosis.
It’s official. My fibromyalgia is saying, “hi, I’m back”! Mind you, my fibro never completely takes a hike. It’s with me year-round. However, my fibro is very definitely affected by weather changes.
Fall is my favorite season. I love watching the leaves turn colors. (I took some pictures this weekend — from a 4-seater airplane — of some trees starting to change. Look for them in upcoming posts). I love the sunny, crisp, cool days where taking a breath of fresh air just feels awesome. I am determined NOT to let fibromyalgia take fall away from me as my favorite season. So, I will use the coping mechanisms and tools I have found over the years to deal with my fibro. (Please see previous fibro posts for more details as I am much too tired to elaborate).
The bottom line is I hurt from head to toe. Every muscle in my body is screaming in pain. It hurts to sit. It hurts to walk. It hurts to stand. It even hurts to lie down. Hmm. I seem to have run out of options, haven’t I?
Every cell in my body and every molecule in my body seems to be screaming out in pain… in a loud chorus that is impossible to ignore.
Anyway, I hope this is not a sign of things to come and that this fibro flare-up will be short-lived. I will try not to think about the fact that every year up until now (since I got fibro) this “fall flare-up” has slid right into winter. So, realistically, I know this could be the deal until about March. Let’s hope not. It is what it is. I’m not going to get all worked up about it.
One last note… Speaking of the word “fall”, I did just that today. I fell onto the hardwood floor. Hard. (My legs were both numb – not related to fibro – and, to make a long story short, both completely gave out on me when I attempted to stand up). This fall did not help my all-body pain. Pre-fall I had head-to-toe pain, skin pain, pain where my hair actually hurts, etc. Now it’s all that plus my ankle hurts from when I fell and it twisted a bit.
So that’s where things are at now. If you are one of the many people who have sent me messages on twitter that I have not yet responded to, I apologize for the backlog and will reply as soon as I am able.
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